I used to think that no one was listening.

I used to think this was all pointless

I used to think I’d be done by now

I was wrong.

The closer we get to 2013 the more I reflect on what I’ve accomplished this year. It’s something I need to remind myself of, because sometimes, even now, I get nervous. I worry my ideas are bad and that I’ll end up failing. I worry I’m going to let everyone down.

But then I look back on this year and I see how far I’ve come and how much I’ve grown. And I’m not the only one. Since I started this band and this project, I’ve met so many like-minded people out there. We’ve shared thoughts and fears. Musical creations and ideas we were too afraid to share with anyone else. We’ve shared dancefloors and stages, and coffeeshop tables and we’ve grown. We’re still kids, but only on the inside, where we let our imaginations grow. I’ve seen how scared you were to perform in front of a crowd that first time, and now I see how confident you are when you’re standing up to that microphone. Some of you were scared to dance, and maybe you still are, but I know that when I’m out there you’ll have the guts to join me. And you’ve seen me too. With my ridiculous hair, my spidey suit, sweat pouring down my face, and my glasses slipping down my nose while I croon for whoever will listen.

And yes, we’ve still got plenty of room to grow, but we’ve taken our baby steps and that’s a beautiful thing. Whether you’re making music, writing, or working on your skills as an artist, you’ve improved. Even if you don’t notice it yet. You have. And you’ll continue to improve, same as me. Sure, you’ll still have your moments of doubt. You’ll still get nervous, but let’s take the time to pat ourselves on the back. Because even if the world (or Colorado Springs) isn’t aware of everything you’ve accomplished, you can at least take pride in yourself. I know personally, I’m proud of all of you for making it this far and doing what you do, and every once and awhile I can admit I’m proud of myself too.